Breaking Me

Breaking me
By Mesa Bailey

No longer your here,
But my scars never leave.
Waking is so hard to do,
And it's all because of you!

I'm alone and yet your eyes,
They burn into my soul.
Searching for my broken heart,
Each tiny piece you once stole.

So close but so far away!
From all the things I have to say.

Your no longer here,
But I'm still quaking in fear.
Never going to show a tear..

The rain is falling,
I hear sweet freedom calling!
But you won't let me go,
Fearing I might show,
All my pain and sorrow.

Forever reaching for tomorrow!

Somebody wake me from me nightmare.
Because your still there.

Like Glass

You know most of the time I say I'm not going to explain my writing? Well this time I'm going to, other wise this one could seem to way different from what it really is.
Have you ever had one of those times when things add up and become to much? That's kinda how my last few weeks have been, so I sat down and tried to get some of my trapped emotions out in a none violent, peaceful way and writing is almost the only way for me to do that.
"Like Glass" is how I felt at that time, you know seemingly strong but oh so easy to break and in some ways broken. So this is what came out...

Like Glass
By Mesa Bailey
December 18, 2009

Started off so perfectly,
The simple way you loved me.
Watching as we fall apart now,
Hearts shatter like glass.
Can’t hide the tears anymore,
Because their falling like rain!
Washing over us now
It’s coming down to the truth,
The one thing you never said.
Never meant for this,
Didn’t mean for the pain!
I keep holding on,
For what I don’t know
Cause you keep letting me go.
Falling so far,
Waiting to wake from this nightmare
Reach out to me,
Pull me close and never let go!
All your lies linger now,
They fill my head with fear.
Just tell me the truth,
For once let me in
To see the side of you that’s real.
We started off so perfectly,
All the peace you gave me
Falling apart!
Broken by the words unspoken
Oh for that simple way you loved me,
So distant now it’s seems.
You stand there watching me,
As my heart shatters like glass!

Reality

Okay, somethings just don't have to be explained... How ever I'm afraid this one does, you see I'm at a point right in my life where I've got a lot to think about and deal with. To be perfectly clear and honest, this is not pointed at anyone.. I'm not real sure where it came from, but it here it is. Take what you will from it.

Reality

By Mesa Bailey

December3, 2009

Every time I reach for the sky,

Gravity pulls me back into reality.

Weight of the world crushing down,

Just praying peace to swiftly come,

All on my own,

I’m lost without you now.

The sun so out of reach,

Though despair at my feet.

Can’t always see through the dark,

But the hope of light pushing on

Because when I’m reaching for the stars,

Reality pulls me back away.

Tainted by the twisted fates,

Holding out for something true

The air so thick between us,

Rapidly filling with all we don’t say.

Weight of the world on my mind,

Praying peace to find

Just let me reach for the sky,

Defy the cruelty of this dark reality.

Comfort my soul,

Because I’m lost without you now,

Standing on my own!

Reaching for the light,

Peace so soon to find.

Every time I reach for the sky,

Gravity pulls me back to face

My reality….