Medicine of the Heart

By Mesa Bailey
October 15, 2009

I can feel you’re vibrant light,
As I hold you in my palm

Touch my heart with your wisdom
Guide me through this darkness,
So I might see past the web of confusion.

Spent so long in the dark,
Now I can see the sun shining so bright.

Clinging to the love you gave me,
I feel almost free.

The empty space is quickly filling now,
I’ve felt you’re warmth burning through the night.

Changing the colors of my heart,
Each drop of rain washing me away!

Holding you’re light in my hands,
Truth at my fingertips

Softly spoken words the wind sings.
Just tell me who I am,
A once distant dream unlike anything

The world it seems to lose it’s self,
Caught up in the it’s lies.

Just hold me with you’re gentile touch,
Give me the strength to try
To find myself….

Upon A Star

Upon A Star

By Mesa Bailey

September 26, 2009

Wishing on a bright silver star,

Longing to hear your sweet voice of comfort

It’s been so long since I looked into your eyes.

Sitting here searching my memory,

Thinking of a time when we were.

Wish I may, Wish I might

Just have the thing I need tonight!

Close my eyes and I can see,

Your holding me tight and I’m right back

To that place where all made such perfect since

Reaching for your hand,

So far away now!

Wishing on the beautiful star,
If only that star could bring you to me.

Until that day,

I sit here wishing upon a star

Midnight

Midnight

By Mesa Bailey

September 17, 2009



Standing alone watching the rain,

Each drop dancing across the earth.

Sounding like thunder,

His words echo in her mind.

Looking for the light in his eyes,

Seems so far behind now!

Holding back her tears

As love turns away

Left under the moon light,

Reaching for his hand

If only he’d take it and hold her close.

Can’t turn back a broken heart!

Wishing upon the stars at night,

She needs him to see how

All his lies and secrets cut like a knife!

The empty air between,

Says more then he ever would.

Searching for a sign of truth,

As the cold rain hits her face

And wakes her from her nightmare,

Only to find him with a tear stained face.

Watching him as he turns away

She holds tight to the hope of love.

Each teardrop flooding her dark eyes,

He turns his back

As she whispers her final ‘Goodbye’

Why is it that when I pour out my very heart and soul into a poem, it comes out all wrong?

Always And Forever

By Mesa Bailey

September 2, 2009

Standing there under the night sky,

That loving shine in your eye

My head resting sweetly on your shoulder,

You pull me in closer.

Your hand held tightly in mine,

The world it seems, so far behind.

Gliding across the dance floor,

You hold me tight and I fall more!

Looking deep into your eyes,

My feelings for you, is no surprise.

Your sweet voice I hear, the only sound,

Because it seems no one else is around.

Together just you and I,

Dancing under the night sky

Never want this night to end,

Our hearts it’s seems finally ready to mend.

Just to be with you,

There’s nothing I wouldn’t do.

As I lay awake in my bed,

Our night it plays sweetly in my head.

Without a word we said it all,

From this love we’ll never fall!
Now I’m sitting here lost in a dream,

To be with you, heaven it would seem.

Three simple words can be so true,

But only when I say them to you!

There’s a force I can’t hide,

It’s pulling me closer to your side.

And for some reason, I don’t know why

You say I’m the apple of your eye.

You hold me tight,

And whisper everything’s alright.

Can’t stand us to part,

You’ll always have my heart!

Always

And Forever

My date with his parents

Okay, before I tell you all the romantic details let me start where it all started.
On the 15th was a tri-stake dance and my boyfriend "Indy" had just gotten back from his trip to his mom's in Maine. So I was very excited about finally seeing him! I spent almost two weeks picking out what to wear ( I'm not normally like that) I figured out what I was going to wear about two hours before the dance.... Skipping forward...... There was a bet going on with most of the youth from our stake and some of the leaders, that he and I would sneak out and spend the whole dance making out. Well, to be honest we didn't even think about it until we heard about the bet. Once there we both moved all around the room making sure everyone saw that we never left the room. On the last song which was "Never Say Never" I was standing next to this guy I use to have a crush on and "Indy" just took my hand and took me to dance, we were under the lights and neither of us were saying a word, just looking into eachothers eyes and I got totally lost in the moment. Until he took off the chain necklace of his (Which is from his home town in Germony and is very very important to him) he moved my hair and put it on me and I gave him something that means just as much to me. He walked me to the car and we said goodnight.

Since then I've missed him like crazy and when he has ROTC and we don't get to talk, it drives me insane. We finally had a date planned and his parents told him either we find two mormon couples we BOTH know or they come with us.. We looked and looked and looked. Never found one couple that we both knew. So his dad and step mom said they'd be coming with us. Which is fine, not like we had any plans to do anything bad anyway. Friday (the day before the date) I got to thinking, these are his papents... The parents of someone who matters the world to me.. What if they don't like me? Or what if I'm not what/who they think? Oh my gosh I got so nervous that he said "Their just people" well that's fine but I don'w well with people. So I'm even more nervous. I had some what spoken with his father on the phone, and knew that he's a very teasing and playful person. No problem with that right but he's still my boyfriends father. I got so nervous I threw up....... I have NEVER in my life been that nervous.
Saturday came around and "Indy's" phone wasn't working so we hardly got to talk. I got ready and tried not to throw up again. We dicided to meet at the Herb Shop where my mom works. I sat there nervously waiting until he got there and I went out to meet his family.
We got in the car and headed to Long Horn. I hardly talk when I'm nervous so the ride was kinda quite. After his dad teased me about getting a salad, and we began to talk "Indy" reaches over and grabbs my hand. We held hands for most of the dance so I was kinda hopping he'd hold my hand on the date too. We ate our supper and drove over to the movies, we stood in line for a while when I got kinda cold and he put his arms around me (yes it was all sweet and everything) we decided to sit with his parents, which was fine. Again we had no plans to do anything so nothing to hide. As the movie started I slid over and rested my hear on his sholder and he put his arm around and I grabbed his hand. Every now and then we'd just sit there an look at eachother till I started to blush and looked away. Now we sat like that the whole movie! I totally loved it!

When the lights came on his step mom got up and shortly we did too, then all four of us walked out into the parking lot and waited for my dad and Manti to pick me up. "Indy" and I stood there and talked until I heard our dodge coming. How they knew where we were I'll nebver know cuz they pulled up right infront of us. They walked me over to the car and "Indy" gave my dad something and we hugged and said goodnight.

We were texting before either of us got out of the parking lot :-)

So even though I started off so nervous I was sick, the night went very well and I had one of the best nights of my life! I didn't say anything stupid, he's parents didn't hate me. I'd say that's a good night. I can't wait until I get to be with him again!

Sadly though we didn't get any pictures of us together. But will soon I hope :-)

My Heartaches

Well I went looking thru my poems and found this one. I really like it because it seemed to come together when I started writting.

My Heartaches
By Mesa Bailey
May 22, 2009

My heart sinks into my chest,
As I search for the words best.
I didn’t mean for this,
Got lost in the hope for bliss!But now I’m standing here alone,
If only you had known.
Waiting out side in the rain,
Wishing it would wash away the pain.
Looking into your eyes,
My words come as such a surprise.
The sorrow that I feel,
Oh the pain, it’s so real.
My heart sinks into my chest,
What are the words best?
Can’t hold back my tears,
Their drowned only by my fears!
Watching the pain in your eyes,
My own heartache is such a surprise.
The loneliness and fear,
Just knowing that your not here.
My heart sinks into my chest.
Never found the words best!

Butterfly Of My Heart

Here is one of my favorite poems, I wrote it some time ago.

Butterfly Of My Heart
By Mesa Bailey
August 22 2008

I’m going to let my hair fall down,
Sit and watch the rain,
Come around.
Each drop is a beautiful sound!
Shut my eyes,
So my heart can see
All that your love dose to me!
Take me heart and fly away,
In the clouds I’ll,
Always stay.

Just wait and see,
What the truth will be.
Just sit and wait with me!
Stand here and close your eyes,
Here’s life,
It’s your surprise!

Listen to the wind,
Let go and let your heart mend.

I’m going to let my hair fall down,
Every time,
I see the sun come around.
Watch the rays as the dance on the ground!

Shut my eyes so I can see,
The beauty that surrounds me!